Wow, almost forgot about this blog. Well...actually, I DID forget about it, I just happened to click on my google profile and see what all was in there...low and behold, my ramblings. It's amazing how much your life can change in a year. M. and I broke up this past February. We're still friends. The business is still going well, it's not always easy and there's ups and downs but that's to be expected when you're just getting off the ground. I'm not even sure what to write about at the moment. I am a much happier person than I used to be. I'm working out, losing weight (not coming off nearly fast enough, dang it!). I like being happy. I enjoy not being upset, frustrated, angry, sad, lonely. Not to say that I was those things all the time, but I found more often than not I was crying myself to sleep, and I didn't like the person I was, or had become. I've found me again and surprise, she's just a little bit dusty, and a bit hesitant, but she's there and she smiles a lot more. :)
I'm 33 years old, and a few years ago, I was freaked at the idea of being in my 30's, not married, no children, not settled. I had my entire life mapped out, which pretty much derailed 10 years ago when I was 23. I still want those things, don't get me wrong...but I am just enjoying living life in the now, seeing what things come next. I think some people I've met have helped in that area, caused me to just take things at a slower pace. I'm pretty much the typical Aries...go go go. Take life and just go all out. Sometimes impulsive. Fiery gal, lol. I think I've found a good balance now.
Is this post even making any sense? It is to me, but I'm a bit all over the place. Guess it's my ADD kicking in. I think that's it for now. Not a bad start. We'll see if I keep up with this or not. I always have so much going on my plate, always a ton of projects going on at once- usually to do with my business. Strangely enough, I don't really do all that much "me" time, although I have a bit more recently. Even when I'm on facebook, I almost always have about 15+ im's up answering questions for work and whatnot.
So...ending this entry for today, I may be back...I may not. No promises, no expectations. I'm just talking to myself here anyways :P
~S
